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2002-12-23 - 3:55 p.m. i saw the couple by the desk cuddling and living in a secluded bubble of idealism and promise and i wanted to be them again, wanted to be able to believe that love can ever again be like that, wanted to be able to turn the defenses off, hide away the memories of pain, be able to give myself to someone that openly, that wholly, that freely, that easily again. please please please. i shouldn't be this jaded, this disappointed, this sad, this lonely this young. i've been through it and back, and now i can't even muster the energy or strength to try again. i deserve better than what i've been given, now and in the past. yes. ( 0 tell me?)